Scarred.
I struggled with MamaKat's prompts this week. I wasn't sure what I could write about. And to start the New Year, I wanted something to be light. And then I remembered something. I always tell Scott I've been scarred, for life. I shall never recover. And, even though Ethan doesn't recall, I'm sure he is too.
When Ethan was born, Scott and I decided to have him circumcised. I wasn't sure where to go, so I called our clinic. Turns out, one of the doctor's there, would be able to do it. He was on vacation, at the moment, and would return within 2 weeks. So I made the appointment.
It turned out that Scott would not be there, for the procedure. I was tempted to cancel.
The day came, and my cousin came with me. The nurse asked us if we had a pacifier for him. Oh, didn't think about that. Guess we need to buy one. Luckily, there was a pharmacy near by, so we bought a couple.
I was very confused, and didn't know what to do. We were led into a room. My cousin came with me for support. I was already shaking. The doctor came in, and took Ethan. He began to wimper. Smart boy, knew something was up. The doctor strapped Ethan's legs down. He's now crying. My heart is breaking.
The doctor was great. He did a fabulous job. My cousin was intrigued and fascinated by it all. I thought I was going to throw up. I cried along with Ethan, but kept them to myself, as I didn't want 4 week old Ethan to see me cry.
When we were done, they had me sit in a room with Ethan to feed/calm him. A nurse came by, and saw the look on my face (horror) and exclaimed, "You were there? Why did you stay???? You should have called one of us to be with him. No mother should witness that."
Well now you tell me!!!!!!!
I'm officially scarred! For life!
6 comments:
My daughter needed a chest x-ray at about a month old. The doctors would not let me be in the room - they said it would be too hard. I could hear her screaming out in the hall, it was awful.
Big hugs! I didn't witness either of my boys having this done, so I can only imagine what you went through. Love and hugs.
If I ever have a boy (not likely since we already have 2 girls) I refuse to circumsize. I just cannot see myself willingly letting a doctor cut my baby for what? Vanity? I don't even know.
*Shudder* I'm sorry you have to be scarred for life by this.
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I don't think I could have witnessed that. I'm not surprised you are scarred - too bad the nurse couldn't have let you know that earlier!!
Oh, we didn't stay for our sons. I cried just thinking about it. Stopping by from Mama Kat's.
Scarred for Life you are!!!
The boys pediatrician didn't even ask us to be in the room, she just took the boys, did it and gave them crying. There was no way I was going to be in the same room with them.
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